or rather two, i met someone, whom i have considered important in my journey of life since childhood (though i know i am somewhere at the bottom of that person's priority list, but does that matter???!!! :D), i paid yet another visit probably after a long time. As i stepped inside their abode, i had a big surprise in years. I met this once great friend of mine nearly after 12 long years. I have always dreaded to lock eyes with long lost relation even in my dreams. I always felt a block in my throat even in my sleep, when the thought of talking to them occupied my head.
But unlike what i always felt, a smile occupied my lips, my heart was overjoyed and i was transported back in time to my old schooling days. Days when i knew no stress, no strains, fun and joy always lingered in the air. We talked, talked..talked the entire day about the old stories, about the present happenings....
Just before i left the place, i realized how much life has changed, what happened to those carefree attitudes? what happened to those happy mornings? where did i lose my ability to enjoy the day? How much of an transformation have i undergone? Both physically and mentally....
I earn for myself, i take care of myself, i do what i want to do...yet I dont have time to sit and relax, i am unable to come in terms with the word joy, fun and peace. So much for the grown up responsibility....And why is it that a grown up have to be so responsible and stressed? Cant i be responsible and have fun?
thinking aloud...i am trying to find where and how i have lost my inner peace....searching as i wander this land, hoping to find an answer soon, hoping to set things as i want to....After all change is inevitable, this time let me make it happen to meet my desires :)
Let glory be with Kalyan.
