சிந்திக்கிறேன்....

வண்ணங்கள் நிறைந்த ஆசைகள் பல, சிறு வயதிலிருந்து,
வண்ணக் கனவுகளாகவே இருந்து விட்டது!!

அனுபவம் வளரும் என்றார்கள், ஆனால்
வளர்ந்ததோ என் உருவம் மட்டும் தான்!!

மூளை வளர்வதற்கு வழியன்றி, பிறக்கும் போதே ஏதோ ஒரு
மூலையில் தூக்கி எரிந்து விட்டேன் அதை, காரணம் என்

தலை கணம் அதிகமாய் இருந்ததால். கணம் குறைந்து
தலையில் லேசாக உரைக்கும் பொழுதுதான் உணர்ந்தேன்

காலம் பல கடந்து விட்டது என்று. கடந்த
காலத்தையும் இழந்த பல அம்சமான

மனிதர்களையும் எண்ணிப் பார்த்தால் ,
மணிகள் பலவற்றை என் வாழ்வில் இழந்து விட்டேன்

என்ற ஒரு எண்ணம் - வண்ணக் கனவுகளில் மிதந்து விட்டேனோ
என்ற ஒரு வருத்தம்! ஒரு வேளை இதைத்தான் அனுபவம்
என்று கூறுவார்களோ?!!! சிந்திக்கிறேன். இப்படிக்கு ஸ்ரம்வேன்.

The worst fear

in US for me, is getting trapped in a washroom, when someone's intestine is being cleared :(.....Unlike India, here all buildings are completely air-conditioned and CLOSED. So if someone leaks a bit of air, you are going to have the worst few seconds of your life, which u can never realize until your senses encounter the weird smell......So, you have no option of opening any windows, for there are none and the bottom line is - Always be prepared to expect the UNEXPECTED!!!!!

The first word that erupts in my so called mind is BIG, the minute i think of US. Anything for that matter, cars, vegetables, fruits, houses, roads, office buildings.....name it, they are all big and huge. So are the effects of the leaked air in a closed room :(:(. I have never seen the door numbers in a community to increase sequentially....they are always multiplied by two,three and the maximum i have seen is twenty. WOULD U BELIEVE IT????????????????? 20 grounds for one house, where a max of 4-6people live? And each one in the house have their own CAR, just like the two-wheeler funda in india.......

But Indians are always Indians....Ya u cannot change certain traits that have been inherited and practiced for most part of your lives. As far as i have seen, anyone speaking loud on the phone in a public place is an Indian, when a group of elderly man gather and laugh aloud, they tend to be indians.....When you find someone dressed with shorts and t-shirts and find a woodlands full formal shoes, they are again Indians, completely dressed in formal phants and shirts, most indian women tend to have big round bindi in their foredhead......oh god!!!!For someone sake, cant they realize how bad they look? Forgot to let you know, a three piece suit and a Nike sports shoe is common among the Indians who travel to Chicago downturn for work. Pathetic. The irony is that, the few of such eminent personalities, with whom i got a chance to talk, have been here for more than seven years......

While that is one set of Indians, there is another side of it. Ya every coin has two faces.....These are real professional at most times....Ya when i say most times, they tend to be carried overboard, overdoing their makeups :).....All in all, so far i have never felt missing india except for the Transportation. Yes the bloody transportation SUCKS big time here.

The best thing about this land is that it has lot of natural wealth. I can find all roads adorned with green/violet/pink/white/blue/yellow trees/flowers/grasses on either side of the road, which has become a rarity in India, and future generations will get to know about them via virtual world and museums. Will they get to experience it?I guess it is out of question!!!! for we did not provide the opportunity to do so and we need to blame ourselves than no one.....

While US has all wealth, every possible thing that could make human life easier.......the serene calmness i experience within me after the days work ends and i find myself at home, while the clock is happy inching near the 1am mark......i dont tend to experience it here....even if the clock reads 11 in the night...there is always a restlessness!!!! Has it something to do with me returning to India or is it something to do with me settling here? I guess, before i leave for my ABODE, i will find an answer.....

inda paathai - ayirathil oruivan 2009

Movie: ayirathil oruvan (2009)
composer: GV Prakash
Vocal:GV Prakash

ஹே ஹே ஹே ….
இந்த பாதை எங்கு போகும்
ஹே ஹே ஹே …
இந்த தேடல் எங்கு சேர்க்கும்

நான் இங்கு கலந்தேன் ஒரு புயலில்
நான், ஒரு இலைதான் இந்த காட்டில்
நான், ஒரு இலைதான் இந்த காட்டில்

ஹோ ஹோ ஹோ ….
இந்த பாதை எங்கு போகும்
ஹோ ஹோ ஹோ …
நான் இங்கு கலந்தேன் ஒரு புயலில்

முதலும் முடிவும் இல்லை
இலக்குகள் எல்லைகள் இல்லை
கரையில் தொல்லை கடலில் இல்லை
கடலும் மறைந்தால் மனம் இல்லை

ஆடி கூத்தாடி நீ தெரிந்தால் ஏது சோகம்
உலகை பார்த்து பார்த்தால்
உன் வாழ்க்கை மெல்ல சாகும்

ஓடம் நதியில் போகும்
நதியும் ஒடம்மேல் போகும்
அழுவதும் சிரிப்பதும் உன் வேலை
நடப்பவை நடக்கட்டும் அவன் லீலை

மரங்கள் இங்கு பேசும்
பனி துளிகள் மாயம் காட்டும்
இதை நீ கொஞ்சம் உணர்ந்தால்
பிற உயிர்கள் உன்னை தொடரும்

ஆஹ ஹான்
ஆஹ ஹான்
ஆஹ ஹான்
ஆஹ ஹான்

ஹா ….
நான் இங்கு கலந்தேன் ஒரு புயலில்
ஹோ ஹோ ஹோ …
இந்த பாதை எங்கு போகும்
ஹோ ஹோ ஹோ …
இந்த தேடல் எங்கு சேர்க்கும்
நான் இங்கு கலந்தேன் ஒரு புயலில்

கலி முத்திப்போச்சு

I have always agreed changes are constant. While the swing of pendulum indicated that extremities in life are possible...they do not always follow a definite time period that one swing takes. Life is unpredictable, sometimes subtle, sometimes volcanic. Maybe that is what that makes life all the more interesting.

Believe me i have come across enough brains that turns topsy-turvy, ears that turn deaf, eyes that become blind, tongues that twist like tornado in no matter of time. What truly took me by storm was when one of my supposed to be well matured friend, all of sudden called me up, told me about his so called well thought about decision.

shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh(deep sigh)

கலி முத்திப்போச்சு - i find myself uttering.....

While there have been good and ugly responses for Ravanan tamil version, I couldn;t deny but confess i have been hooked to the KArthik's number for some time now. The lyrics could not have been better. Vairamuthu has done full justice.

When individual words alone looked at, the lyrics would look awful and disgusting. But, along the flow, lies the beauty of each line....it flows......and truly....உசுரே போகுதே......

Had i been lazy not to update this place so far? No not really. Had i busy? Yes sort of...but they were no reasons i did not write here. I was more so lost in my world and never felt like writing here. Yesterday was one awesome evening, and it was definitely the awesome evening since i came to US. So whats special about it? i had been to a concert led by Unnikrishanan and Embar Kannan.

I wished a gazillion times, i could attend atleast one of the katcheries in chennai. I had even booked tickets half a dozen times. but some work always held me at bay. Had it been chennai, i dont think, i would have enjoyed it that much...for the mere reason, i was able to talk with unni after the concert and had a snap too :P

Two ragas hamsanadham and Madhukamz by the team, just enlightened a longing soul in me, elevated me to the supreme bliss. It was a memorable evening. Finally i found uttering PRAPTAM for the nth time after coming to US.

The afternoon of the same day, had me visiting a Guju temple. It was full of marble. The temple had some very good carvings on the wall...not some a lot....the temple was full of marble...and i did buy the picture of the idol. It was a captivating smile of panduragan, that forced me to buy that....i bought for me and my brother, who will be in eternal bliss when he looks at the picture.