A wave

of emotion swept over me when madhan told me "நீயும் பாடகன் தானே"!!! Ya. We were discussing about a singer and then came this remark. I knew well he was kidding, alas, had i done my homework, had i treaded the path shown to me by my mom and dad long time ago, had i stuck to my heart, had i lived my dreams, had i put in my bit of efforts, i would have definitely been one now. Instantly all the best times,  the classes that were proposed, the times that i had planned and repented, the first song that i sang in front of a small audience  back in SAV, the first time when my spine shook when my mouth uttered Bho shambo, all the emotions that swept over me time and again when i watched someone sing beautifully and in harmony, just breezed through my mind. 

I wish i took few well wisher's words more seriously, i wish i had a time machine, i wish.....i wish...i wish....they are endless......Come what may life keeps moving.

நடுல வந்தவன் தானே நானு

Often times when i talk to bandu or sathan i would irritate them with just one line!!!! "நடுல வந்தவன் தானே நானு...."

the 100

When i first started writing the blog, all i wanted was to jot down my memories. But then, if i had to jot down everything, probably that will create an havoc in mine and others life whose are interlinked with mine. So i decided to type down those that i wanted to cherish, but ya there were times when i just hurt few people without my knowledge, which just made my content more refined probably more restricted. Something that has to be lived with in the no-privacy world.

When i first wrote down my experience of something, i was looking for an apt tag. Then came along 'pages from my diary'. Whether a diary really exists is a different question, but if u find it someday, you will definitely find the postings with more elaborate narration. Today i just noticed, i had recorded the 100th post under that tag. Well 100 is not a big milestone, but definitely a milestone for an amateur like me. I hope this does grow, grow big enough to capture the best of my memories, which will give me chances time and again to relive it.

Let glory be with Kalyan.

Testing times ahead

"Lets see how far this goes". Those were the last lines i said to him, before we bid a final melancholic farewell to MIG. Considered to be one of the best teams during our time, we were actually the people of best differences. Between a pair of two, among us there was that virtual barrier. A barrier, that was formed over the years, with no particular intention and no particular reason, which rose to beat the everest with each day after the life at MIG. A barrier that now stands firm behind the smile that adorns each's face when we all gather togethar. Still the relationship is young, waiting to step into its teens, to watch the battle of life.  

An Introspection

Probably once in a life time we do come across feelings, feelings that engulf us totally when acquainted the first time, which over a period of time leaves a small yet a remarkable and vividly etched mark that stays distinct just like the black mole in a fair forehead till the body finds its resting grounds. Such feelings are rare to find and when found they are rare to forget.

As I departed back to Chennai, I had some of the best moments of my life. The more the minutes I drained out, the more intense was the introspection. Finally I had some of the best answers to questions that haunted my mind for sometime and those that denied entry to my mind for a long time. I realized what time can do to you, and what u can lose because of it. Time – the thing that has mattered a lot to man silently, yet spectacularly in all his endeavors.

I now poses some of the best memories and best feelings that I have gained at the expense of time. Somewhere somehow, every man has a passion for something be it crime, money, family, business, economy, politics…..in each one of this time is of highest significance. Crime committed at the wrong time, family beginning at the not so (called) auspicious time, exploring and enhancing business at the bad time, playing with the economy at the worst time, political moves with an awful timing have and has always proved to be a definite historic event.

While a successful family story, wonderful crime, flourishing business, bullish economy and well run politics have been mostly forgotten, never known to the world or accepted to be a regular chore in the life except for few milestones.  Even though the same time has been accounted with the highest degree of precision, no one talks about it. So to be prominent something should have a bad timing somewhere? hmmmm….so what have I gained with the introspection, thought of time and a life time experience/feeling????While I know what I have, do you know if u have had one such time in your life, where u accounted time for the same and held it close to heart all your life? And was it your timing of that time that u accounted for or accounted that time as fate??? Keep thinking…

 

Let glory be with Kalyan.